we are no lovers when we first met.
“FRIENDS” as you may call it and Jesus Gives Life Church (JGLC) helps us to form a bond that leads us to something… we don’t expect. we started in a group called “Radical in Christ.”
we are the youth who used our talents for God. we are both unavailable that time. you are into someone and i also am into others.
until you express yourself to me… you are not that handsome before…
not so lovable as well… hmm… i thought of you as my “BEST FRIEND ONLY.” i never thought liking you and worst… loving you.
you are just a friend who always there for me when i’m sad. who always sings and plays guitar when i’m alone at the church’s veranda. who always makes me laugh when i’m about to mourn because of my ex-boyfriend. who always ruin my day because you want me to look at you (haha!). and that’s all WHO YOU ARE TO ME.
but then, i was wronged.
you showed me how you really like me. you showed me how to move on. you showed me how to live a new life without my ex. you showed me how i mean to you. you showed me how you really cares… you showed me how you TRULY LOVES ME. and that’s what makes me somehow… liked you.
until i decided to give you a chance. but still, i regretted. i was scared. i doubted.
i felt so bad. i left you wounded. i left you broken. you’ve decided to walk away from me.
good thing, some thingy came up to my mind that made me realized two things…
“If i let you go, it means, i can never tell you how i feel and this feeling would be useless. BUT, if i stop you, ALL THE THINGS I HAVE IN MY HEART WILL NOW BE USEFUL AND WILL BE ABLE TO HELP YOUR HUNGRY AND WOUNDED HEART TO FEEL REVIVED AGAIN.”
“Wag kang umalis. Dito ka lang sa tabi ko. Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko pag nawala ka pa sa buhay ko.”
“Sabi na eh. Mahal mo rin ako… pakipot ka lang masyado. halika nga dito.” (sabay yakap)
and the story goes…
even if my parents don’t like you for me… stilll, i fight for you. you fight for me… WE FIGHT FOR EACH OTHER.
we stayed happy, contented and IN LOVE.
we’ve been this close and attached to each other.
we’re like “EMO’s” who thought that we can’t live without each other.
but it is true that in a certain relationship, there’s always a problem. specifically, THIRD PARTIES.
well, i never thought you would do that to me. but then, temptation has finally entered.
(i will not name names anymore.)
we had third party… followed by another… and another… and another another… until it came to this point that we had… i guess, SIXTH PARTIES! augh! you dang enjoyed fishing, don’t you?
however, though we had this problem EVERY YEAR… still, we gave each other a chance to start again…
we restart (like computers, yea) and here we are… still alive and kickin’… rockin’ rollin… and of course, LOVING.
in good times and in bad times… we still end up being together.
we experienced toils and hardships that leads us to end this up just like these days… i can’t feel you again. even if you’re near yet you’re too far. i don’t know.
i don’t know anything anymore.
where are you now?
where are WE now?
i know it won’t last long… i love you and i guess, you still love me too… and i hope we still continue this relationship… this love… without any parties… without any lies. JUST YOU AND ME… JUST US.
“We always wanted to love someone we really like, someone we dreamt of. But destiny moves unpredictably. All your expectations will collapse because of what is really destined for you. And no matter what you do, no matter how you drip off, no matter what happens… you can never change the fact that you have fallen and will keep on falling for your ONE TRUE LOVE.”
Bee, i love you. no matter what happens… i still love you and i will always love you my MONGoloid boyfriend. i will also not change because i am your PSYchotic girlfriend.
WE ARE PERFECT MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN (i think so).
our story didn’t end here.
AND WILL NEVER END HERE.
to be continued.. <3